Independent #7

I’ve really f***** things up this time. Why did I have to drink? Why did I have to lie? Now the only guy I’ve cared about since Him, hates me.
Come now, he doesn’t hate you.
Well maybe he doesn’t hate me, but she sure as hell isn’t fond of me.
All is not lost. He said that he had feelings for you.
He had had feelings for me? How could I not have seen it? Because he told me he was falling for his ex again. What would any girl do? Pursue someone who was obviously giving hints that his thoughts were not on her? That’s such a hopeless cause!!
But it wasn’t was it?
No, now he said that just because he was getting feelings for his ex doesn’t mean he didn’t have them for me. How was I supposed to know that? What am I psychic?”
You realize what you have to do don’t you?
No I can’t. I won’t! That’s wrong.
No it’s right and yes we can and yes we will!
NO I WON’T!! THIS ISN’T ABOUT YOU THIS IS ABOUT ME!!! YOU DON’T EXIST!
You wouldn’t have gotten this far if it wasn’t for me! Have you forgotten already all that I’ve done for you, you ungrateful little b****! Remember? Remember HIM?
What are you talking about? You didn’t do anything. I dumped him because of what he did. You didn’t do anything. I dumped him.
And you haven’t heard a thing from or about him since have you.
No, I haven’t. He just disap…..Oh my God. What did you do?!?!?!
What had to be done. He had to learn his lesson. And you were too weak to do it. So I had to. I had to crawl out of the dark and save you.
You horrible, horrible creature. You b****, you f***ing lying b****!!!!
I’m not a b****. I’m you.
No, no you’re not. No leave me alone. Get away from me. Oh I feel so dirty. Oh God I’m going to be sick.
I’m a part of you. You can’t ever escape me. You’re bond to me forever.